Are you jumpy around other people?

Abuse, of any kind, or any unwanted touching or verbal attack can create a lack of self-love and self worth within us. This experience leads to an energetic state that leaves you jumping at every noise and feeling scattered throughout your day.

The anxiety trigger of touch lives here and causes you to shy away from or reject hugs, flinch upon being touched or experience this incessant feeling that "I need more space." The idea of holding someone's hand abhors you.

This trigger is the result of your heart feeling a need to protect itself and surround itself with armor because there is a desire to hide your feelings- what if they knew how I felt about myself, I can't let them get too close. If I let them get close, they will hurt me.

But the thing about armor is that while we believe this thick shield can protect us from whatever wants to hurt us, it also prevents us from connecting with the outside world as well.

When we heal and train our hearts to know that it is worthy of love simply because you are here...not for any other reason...simply because you are here then the armor begins to fade.

Your heart does not know how to divide its love. We are unable to turn off one single emotion. If you are upset and decide you are not going to feel one way, your heart shuts down from feeling all your feelings- not just the one of anger.

As a result, life begins to feel numb and isolating.

Have you been experiencing these symptoms?

Where in your life have you been tolerating verbal or physical abuse? Perhaps its a memory from your childhood? It doesn't have to be a tirade, name calling is abuse.

Our hearts only know the on switch. When we try to turn it to the off switch by holding back our emotions, the result is anxiety, depression and illness.

How do we remedy this?

If you are in this situation and are finding yourself jumpy and closed off from others, know that you are loved and you are worthy. You are filled with and are Divine love. As you fill your self-love bucket, you will come to know that you are protected and deserve to be loved. Choose to love yourself first and watch your emotional and physical body and surroundings begin to shift as you fill you.

It is all about your heart and creating a safe haven within you that knows it's not only safe to be you but also fun to be you. You are perfect just as you are. Bask in that today.

Join me for today's meditation, Are you feeling jumpy? Healing your touch anxiety trigger and let me help you heal what is causing this separation for you from all the love that awaits you in the outside world.

Speaking of hearts.... I have an incredible story to tell!

Many of you blessed the Love.Heal.Thrive.center with your painted hearts on the canvas that resided in the space. When I closed my doors on El Camino, I was heartbroken for many reasons but one of which included the decision on how to honor all the love that was poured into this canvas. Each heart was as unique and special as those who painted them and filled them with so much love. I wanted this love to be honored.



There was no space in my house for this sized canvas so I partnered with Noemi Manero, an amazing artist who is a community member and asked her to paint something wonderful that we could donate to charity. Born in Barcelona, Noemi decided to paint what moves her heart....Barcelona. Once sold, we agreed to send its proceeds to the Child Mind Institute to continue to support mental health in children and teens since I helped many teens and children in my practice.



And here it is!! Layers of Love in Barcelona!

Through the windows of the buildings, you can see the hearts pop through. It's amazing and so is the story of the buyer! The buyer is moving to Barcelona for work in two months and this painting will be on its way there soon. To make this experience even more magical, when I showed up to the art show two, not one but two, Love.Heal.Thrive. teachers just happen to be there. It was a total surprise and the best surprise to send our hearts off together! It was undeniably Divinely arranged. Thank you for sharing all your love on this painting and know it has continued to bless the world and help children with their mental health. This feels so wonderfully complete. I am so grateful to Noemi for blessing this painting with her incredible talent and allowing this painting to bless an incredible organization that is helping so many children. I am so grateful for all the love shared within this painting, both through the years and now, and that the heart of Love.Heal.Thrive. will live in Barcelona and will continue to radiate love and joy.

Much love,
Erin